Ok, I wasn't part of the old practicalpickup forum, but from what I have read around here, PM is moving forward towards more of a lifestyle design for men rather than just dating. I want to contribute, however small my contribution might be, to this site moving in that direction.
Dating might be one of the areas I need the most improvement in, but I will survive if I do not become the ladies man I want to be. That is probably just 10% of what being a MAN means to me. The 90% needs my attention too.
My passion has been playing pool for I don't know how many years now. I started playing when I was maybe 16, played for 3 years back in my home country, going into competitions and I was always there at the end, kinda like Germany in soccer. They might not win it, but they will always be there, quarters or semis. But then I moved to Canada and I stopped playing for 5 years. I am now 24. Went on holidays back home, rediscovered my love for the game, but I also discovered that I am shit at it nowadays. haha
So I bought a pool table and now my aim is to get really good at it, master the game for myself. I want to rediscover the feeling of winning. I don't aim to be world no.1 or anything like that, but I want to be a good player. Back in my teens, I used to play with a "feel" of the game. What I'd do is watch good players and learn. I wasn't the best technically, but my mental game always got me there. If I played a good player, I'd keep him in difficult situations and break his confidence down.
But nowadays, I have watched some youtube vids (never had a coach, can't afford it now, I wanna learn on my own anyways) and discovered that there is SOOO MUCH science and thinking that I am getting overwhelmed by so much of this technical aspect of the game. I LOOOVEE it though, I can now figure something out precisely, but just overwhelming.
I want to conquer this challenge. For the past 4 years, I have lived in this dream bubble, thinking I was a good pool player and that made me feel good about myself. Now reality has struck and I am not anymore. When I shoot on my own at home, I noticed I avoid difficult shots because I could miss and my "perfect image" would take a blow.
Anyways, what I want to achieve:
-I have resistance to practice the difficult shots I struggle with over and over, although I know I will only master them by lining them up 400-500 times and KEEP at it.
-I always used to be nervous in competitions back in the days, but I never let it to get the best of me. I just joined a local league, with OK players at best, and I have this FUCKING CRAZY nervous feeling, like a bowling ball on my chest pulling me down. I want to be a good player again, enter some tournaments when there are some but also control my anxiety. BTW, I got butchered by these players in the first 2 weeks, but I could "see" my potential was there.
-I noticed I talk soooo negatively to myself when I am fucking up, I want to love myself, learn to mentally be positive and GIVE MYSELF TIME to adapt. BELEIVE in myself that I WILL get good if I keep at it, and also ENJOY it, because after all, this is my PASSION.
Ok, second thing. I am following the renegade diet (intermittent fasting) and I am managing to fast 16 hours a day. I can see results already. (btw I am in great shape, but I just want to lose some fat and see my six pack). I have always never liked six packs, not sure if I like them now, but I noticed that I used it as an excuse not to REALLY have the low bodyfat I want.
Thing is at night, I always end up eating more calories that I have to and end up keeping on this little layer of fat on my belly. By making myself accountable here, I hope I achieve some more discipline. I think they call it emotional eating, to cover up negative feelings coming up that I want to avoid facing. I do that by watching a lot of TV and movies also.
Last thing, I am trapped in my university garage right now for my final year project, school was closed this week for the study break/week,not many chicks on campus. So I am not giving up on meeting girls; I am just studying, working on building my racecar, going home and shooting pool before bed. I will still post here whenever I approach, or my musings about the women I am already seeing.
You are still all welcome to post your thoughts, encouragements, kick me in ass when I need a wake up call or you think I might be deluding myself about something....anything really.
Please feel free to move this in the appropriate section IF this is not appropriate for the "Meeting Women and Dating" section anymore.
Long post, but necessary. Peace out PostMasculine