Juggernaut's journal/FRs

[juggernaut92]

well I think I need an update here. I actually got the day two with the girl I # closed at the gym. Lets just say it was a good learning experience lol. I lead her around at the beginning and then we sit down in a garden area and talk for a while. We talk about stuff but it feels like I cant keep the convo going. The conversation dies at times and then we find a new topic to talk about. She always keeps initiating the topic so that is good.

After a while I get bored of talking about people we knew from highschool and crap like that so I just say:
J:hey you know what is really boring?
HB:what?
J:This conversation
HB:*starts gigling*

I hold off here for a few seconds and let the silence build and also I was afraid. I then lean over and try to kiss her. It had to be the most awkward moment of my life. She started leaning back and I dont know if i should further lean in so I just leaned back. I think both of us were blushing.

J:well that was awkward
HB: yeah I guess it was

We then start walking out of the garden and she says

HB: yeah I am busy and I think I gotta go call my boyfriend

LOOL. I guess she doesn't want to see me again. whatever. I felt pretty good because I was actually gonna wimp out on this and just leave without even trying to kiss her. Also, it felt pretty good to "burn" a set into the ground. Who knows maybe I have another chance with her. But that was a good reference experience.

I just gotta work on my time management a bit more. I know I can have time for pickup and a hectic school semester. I just gotta be more organized with my time.