05-14-2012, 06:33 PM
(05-14-2012 06:13 PM)Majik Wrote: [ -> ](05-14-2012 05:55 PM)Pineapple Wrote: [ -> ]Disappointingly, I've relapsed two days in a row. I was at over 60 days and doing so well, so I really feel that I've let myself down. However, its in the past. I didn't have K9 installed before so I'm going to install it, pick myself back up, and get back on track.
Wow, 60 days! That is an amazing effort. Well done! Be really pleased with that. What benefits did you have? Do you have any advice for lasting that long?
Then what happened to set you off?
Thank you. I think the greatest benefit was getting "flashes" of an incredible sex drive. It felt great walking on the street, in clubs, etc with so much sexual energy, and interactions with women felt much more natural and rewarding. As Mark said, I also felt that I could appreciate and be attracted to women I normally wouldn't be attracted to. It wasn't a permanent change (there were many flatlines), but I believe it can be if you abstain for long enough.
I think the reason I lasted so long was because I was away at University, and if I wanted to "release" any sexual energy I had, I'd just leave my house and walk around/go somewhere. The city I lived in at University is crawling with college girls.
However, since the beginning of May, I'm living back home in a small town with predominately elderly people. I don't have the luxury of just getting up and going out whenever I get the urge to. These past two days, I've just really had an urge to release all the sexual energy I've had which led to my relapse.
I'm going to need to stop using "living at home" as an excuse if I want to get back on track.