"Something Feels Off Today"

[Passion]

I feel like usually, I'm a fairly positive person. I may not be at the confidence level I want to be yet, but I can get there.

However, on days like today, it seems like there's something off and I can't quite put my finger on it. But as a result, insecurities feel amplified, its harder to approach women (I'm taking the approach women program, and only managed to approach 9 out of the 10 women I was supposed to), and when I'm talking to even friends and family, its like I feel like I'm not all there.

I probably have a good explanation for this though. I didn't have breakfast this morning, but I skip breakfast most days of the week (I know, I shouldn't) and I don't get like this.

The other thing that might be affecting me is that last night, I was asking a friend of mine on Skype whether or not we had homework that night, and at one point, she exploded and typed in all capital letters that we didn't have any homework (even though I said understood after she told me that we didn't; I still don't understand why she freaked out at me). I felt like the mature thing to do was just ignore it and not reply, but I'm wondering if maybe the anger I had might have ended up affecting me. (It was bothering me somewhat this morning as well)

I was feeling pretty good yesterday (even after the above incident). I just feel like that confidence I've been building up thanks to Mark's program is evaporating (and I don't want to start it all over again).

Anyway, thank you to anyone that takes the time to read this.

[Mark]

Off days are normal an will never go away. Jordan had bad games. Hemingway sometimes would spend 12 hours rewriting one sentence. It's human nature. Don't worry about it.

[juggernaut92]

I have those days too.

A week ago I directly approached 5 girls and number closed one and today I could not even bring myself to approach one. These things happen until you hit consistency. You WILL back-pedal in pickup. That is just the reality but overtime you can control it. A good book that talks about all of this is Mastery be George Leonard. It is not about directly about pickup but the whole book is about mastering a skill. Good read and you should take a look if you have the time.

[Passion]

Thanks guys. You're right. I shouldn't worry about it.

I have come a long way though. I used to be depressed and had no real friends about a year ago, and now, I rarely feel down and I've made a couple friends. However, I still want to widen my social circle and start dating/hooking up, but that's the reason why I'm taking the approach program.

I'm guessing my friend was probably upset about something that had nothing to do with me. Its totally unlike her to get mad like this.

[Passion]

So I tried the exercise again, but only managed to approach 4 women today. The last girl I approached completely ignored me and walked away (I know she heard me because we made eye contact).

I'm beginning to wonder if its a good idea to be doing this on campus. It seems even asking for the time is risky because if people start noticing what I'm doing, word might get around about me. I've already did this exercise three times at my campus.

I know its completely irrational, though. I'm just wondering if I should have just went on to Lesson 9. I completed Lesson 8 before, its just that I went a weekend without doing any of the exercises and was feeling anxious again. I just don't understand why I'm feeling worse when I did this a couple weeks ago and was actually feeling great.

Edit: I'm actually wondering if maybe I should find a way to continue the conversation. I've just been asking the time and leaving it at that. Maybe it wouldn't be so weird if it was obviously used as an excuse to get a conversation going.

[baller08]

You care waaaaaaaaaaaaaay too much about what people think about you. Guys who are ultra sensitive to what people think often have huge emotional swings; if you get a good response from a girl then you're super happy, if you don't then you're super down.

It shouldn't matter if women respond well or not. You've got to be solid regardless. It doesn't matter if the whole school knows what you're doing (they don't care). In either case you shouldn't give a shit about what people think about you or what you're doing. Right now your only mission in life is to care about your own development.

Currently your obstacles aren't people, circumstance, situations, or women. Your enemy right now are your unreasonable fears. That's the only thing you need to be concerned about eliminating at all cost. That should be your sole purpose in life for the next 2-3 years - eliminating fears and putting positives in your life.

The biggest irony you'll find is the moment you stop giving a shit about people's approval, people will then want to give you their approval and seek yours. That's just how humans work. We naturally like to give things to those who need it the least.

[Passion]

To be fair, I'm not always like that. As a matter of fact, I had similar experiences yesterday and last week and it really didn't bother me. My school work has also been piling up so I've got some other things on my mind as well.

I do tend to care too much about what other think when I'm stressed out. So there's that. I guess I just want to get the program done as soon as I can due to the monthly payment thing (I'm saving up to go to Japan).