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Salaam · (05-25-2012)

There are moments of softening when I am with my woman. Moments, where the hardened protective shell she shows to the world dissipates. She relaxes, her face softens, and she melts into me.

I love strong women and I love those moments when they see me for who I am and realize that they can take shelter within my being if they feel they need too. Catch their breath in a safe place, firm ground, without judgement, without condition, and just be. Like I can actually see her mind slow down, relax, and surrender to tranquility.

There is a value in a strong reality, an attractive quality in the literal sense, that makes a woman want to share and be a part of your world. Not just dip her toe in, every once in a while, but dive deep.

When a woman chooses you, she chooses your world, your perspective, your energy, what you stand for... and sees if that fulfills her.

When a man chooses a woman... Wink

There is a peace in release and a tranquility in fulfillment. It runs deeper than the superficial nourishment others rely on.

***Mark*** · (05-26-2012)

Lot of guys talk about sex, but what you just wrote about is the real deal.

Creatine Dreams · (05-26-2012)

That is beautiful, Salaam.

Salaam · 05-26-2012 05:25 PM

Thanks y'all

Zac · 05-26-2012 06:20 PM

I shared that with my gf and she said you must be a beautiful man and she wants to give you a hug now.

Salaam · 05-28-2012 05:42 PM

Awwww, it takes a truly beautiful woman to see beauty in a man, give her a big hug for me Zac.

Zac · 05-28-2012 05:43 PM

I wish I could, she is a few thousand miles away =/. I'll give her a skype one for you later though.

Salaam · 05-29-2012 09:45 PM

Ahh, I hear yea. Long distance can be hard. The worst for me was in federal prison, you could only talk for 15 minutes at a time, 4 times a month IIRC.

Zac · 05-29-2012 10:03 PM

I think you have some stories we would like to hear my man, although they are your stories and obviously you don't have to share.

Salaam · 05-30-2012 01:12 AM

Its all good.

I got no problem being open about it, but long story short I did time for importation of MDMA, just a little under two years in Federal. Nothing too crazy.

To be honest prison was actually helpful for me. It allowed me to get my life back together and provided a place for me to prove myself to myself. There were some bad things of course, like not seeing direct sunlight for 6 months straight (this was in jail not prison), the strip searches, wearing boots to the shower, no privacy, and people with aids trying to put their own shit underneath their fingernails and scratch the guards in the SHU. But I was real comfortable there. Had my own phone to use when I wanted (in jail), dudes to hand-wash my clothes, some cool ass Mexicans that would make me burritos with commissary food, and this one cat who would make cards with nice ass drawings for my girl at the time.

Except for drama, every once in awhile, I pretty much just spent all day reading, exercising, playing spades, talking to my girl, and chilling with my people. Not too bad at all.

SeXyBaCk · 05-30-2012 08:53 AM

What's the difference between jail and prison?

Salaam · 05-30-2012 02:06 PM

Depends on the jail and depends on the prison, but for the most part Prison always has better amenities. Jail is much more transitory, guys being shipped out, released all the time. So its new cellies all the time, rec is usually inside, you can use the phones a lot longer, but visits are behind glass, no weights to use (we'd do bodyweight exercises or fill trash bags full of water), shit like that. Jails are just fucking dirty as hell and your around a lower class of criminal for the most part. Crack heads and meth addicts. Especially in the more southern/rural jails.

In prison, there is a yard, so you can go outside (the weight pile was outside), better food, better commissary, an actual mattress rather than mat, you can do your own laundry. There is a lot more to do and a lot more people. You have a lot more politics to deal with though.

Jeez, these past posts of mine have completely derailed the intended tone of this thread.

SeXyBaCk · 05-30-2012 02:09 PM

ah jail is like country jail and prison is state penitentiary... or federal as in your case, which john grisham always makes out to be a country club. Which I'm sure it's not.

Salaam · 05-30-2012 04:50 PM

Nah, federal varies widely depending on where your at. You have minimum, low, medium, and then high security.

The camps or minimum security prisons are the ones commonly portrayed as country clubs, but I doubt they truly are. I've never been in those before so I don't know what their like. I spent my time going from the hole, to medium security, and then finally low.

Creatine Dreams · 05-30-2012 11:01 PM

Yeah, the direction this thread has taken is ironic because jail is supposed to make you hard, not soft.

Regardless, glad to see you made it out of there safely, Salaam.

The Notorious PhD · 05-31-2012 01:25 AM

(05-25-2012 04:56 PM)Salaam Wrote: There is a value in a strong reality, an attractive quality in the literal sense, that makes a woman want to share and be a part of your world. Not just dip her toe in, every once in a while, but dive deep.

There is a peace in release and a tranquility in fulfillment. It runs deeper than the superficial nourishment others rely on.

How does one get to this place?

Quote:...your world, your perspective, your energy, what you stand for...

Is this what I should aim to figure out about myself? And how?

Salaam · (06-01-2012)

(05-30-2012 11:01 PM)Creatine Dreams Wrote: Yeah, the direction this thread has taken is ironic because jail is supposed to make you hard, not soft.

Regardless, glad to see you made it out of there safely, Salaam.

Thanks man, one thing thats cool though is because I tested myself in that arena, being hard is not something I strive for. I know my capabilities there, so I can be as soft and tender as I want with a woman and don't feel like I'm "sacrificing my man-card".

The right kind of softness, with the right kind of motivation isn't weak at all. Its actually pretty fucking powerful and so much more pleasurable.

Its like water. An ocean of emotion.

(05-31-2012 01:25 AM)The Notorious PhD Wrote:
(05-25-2012 04:56 PM)Salaam Wrote: There is a value in a strong reality, an attractive quality in the literal sense, that makes a woman want to share and be a part of your world. Not just dip her toe in, every once in a while, but dive deep.

There is a peace in release and a tranquility in fulfillment. It runs deeper than the superficial nourishment others rely on.

How does one get to this place?

Your path and your place will be different than mine... and either way there is no road map, but there can be a compass. You just have to create it, build it, for yourself. Make it real for you.

Quote:...your world, your perspective, your energy, what you stand for...

Is this what I should aim to figure out about myself? And how?

Exactly. You figure it out with action. The action of being yourself and seeing how the world responds... and then how you respond back

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