I'm a big picture/simplify things kind of guy, and to satisfy that I like to write things out in order to put different pieces of the proverbial puzzle together. So here's some abstract stuff I've been thinking about lately, that hopefully writing here will reconcile/solidify a bit for me and maybe some of it will resonate with others... Setting down railroad track so I can direct which way my stream of conscious wants to choo choo and all that.
I think that one of the major distinctions between being alive or not, is the ability to make decisions. To choose or not, which is also a choice. Thing is, there is a further distinction necessary, between consciously or unconsciously choosing/being driven to choose. For me, this is what truly defines whether a person is living. I find it interesting that a person hooked up to machines in a hospital is called a vegetable and a person who does nothing but sit and watch tv all day is called a couch potato, both are living passively. Much like the vegetable people characterize them as.
People talk of a purpose, I have to have a purpose, what is my purpose, etc. I like to think of myself as a little more simple yet dynamic than that. If I had to say what my purpose is, it would be nothing more than to do the things that satisfy and fulfill me.
The thing with a single over-arching purpose, or having your purpose as being whatever (like being a master at whatever) or attaining something, is that... for me at least thats like driving to a place just to say or prove that you did. You don't journey to a place just to get there, you journey to a place to do things... hopefully cool ass things you actually want to do that fulfill you.
... fuck I hate when people jibber jabber at me and I lose my train of thought.
Not just what we do, but how we do it, defines us, and the more we do, the more nuanced we become, the more distinct, and unique. However, thats a byproduct, not the meat and potatoes, but it does provide a cool perspective on what we find to be attractive.
So if my purpose it to do cool things that satisfy and fulfill me, the only thing that I need to have is the proper vehicle or key to enable me to do those things. I think the only real keys needed for that are strength and focus. Strength to carry things to their course, and focus to navigate that course... I use to focus on becoming strong, like thats what I wanted was to be strong... but for what? I felt empty, because I now realize I was pursuing a key for its own sake rather than, developing a key that enables me to do even more cooler yet strenuous things. Fuck that, but at least now I have the necessary focus (thanks meditation) to stop mindlessly polishing my key (lol) and open some fucking doors with it. Or on the other side of the coin, at least I won't be that mental masturbation guy, continuously working on his focus without ever having developed the strength to actually open the door.
The things we wish to do, demand a varying kind of quality of both keys. Especially, when you wish to do those things with a kind of style. Consciously choosing how to do things as well as what things you do. Thats what I'm working on now, exploring how I like to do things. How I move, how I talk, how I do. While continuously working on my strength and focus so I can find and be able to DO ever more cooler things.
The who, is self-explanatory, the what is the substance, the how is the flavoring, the why is painfully obvious now, but took a long time to figure out,the when is now, and the where just depends
Who = Me
What = Things that satisfy and fulfill me.
When = Only and Always Now
Where = Where I consciously choose.
Why = Satisfaction, fulfillment, pleasure.
How = With my own personal style and the necessary quality of keys of strength and focus. Edit: Finesse might be a key as well. I need to think more on that though.
